No Title. Simple Blog. Simply Me.
I’ve always been fascinated with relationships and love. But it seems I’ve developed a fear of it. Four fears.
1. Creating a bond of trust to that degree, and the possibility of losing it to the tides of life.
2. Attaining that of which i have desperately dreaming/seeking for the last 7 years and to see nothing beyond who i am afterword.
3. To use and abuse someone who put their faith in me, all for the sake of my own melancholic curiosity of points one and two.
4. To see my childish innocence fade away.
…but now let’s speak to an objective me.
1. You can never predict what will happen once the next door flings open. Just do what you’ve always done and cope with the sorrows and happiness that is bound to await you. If you need help, then seek it. There are people you can trust. Don’t just offer your hand to them, and turn your back when you’re in pain. Believe in them. In their bonds with you. Confide in that. Even when you hear nothing but silence, see nothing but faces, feel nothing but cold. Your memories are shared. You thoughts, connected. Echoing in the timeless strings of encounters. You’re not alone. Not anymore. Not now. Not ever. Believe.
2. No one is ever so empty as to have a single layer of truth stacked upon their soul. You too have many truths, paths you have forsaken or have yet to discover. Life will lead you to many places, and you will meet many people. Simply look up, say hello, and take a breath. Step forward, and a new door is awaiting for your entrance onto the stage where you shine brightest.
3. The fact that you recognize that you have a possibility of destroying someone due to your own naivety is proof enough that you care. You will screw up, yes that is inevitable. But so what? You are caring for a person right now who doesn’t exist. Who will not ever exist if you continue to deny yourself that-
no forget that. If you keep on denying that part of yourself that exists deep within the confines of your heart, then you will never truly be living as yourself. You will never be who you are meant to become. You will always live a shadow of someone who is simply waiting for his birth by your recognition and acceptance. Accept yourself. Accept who you are. Accept what you want to become and fight for it. If lost, seek council. But don’t live a shadow. Anything but that. Live proud. Die laughing. Then you might just find yourself not just one, but two.
4. I’m still here. I will always be here.
Goodnight.
